Singletasking

30 03 2008

Nowadays, I simply try to do one thing at a time.

When I’m washing my hands I try to focus on doing just that, washing my hands. Not thinking about everything I will do after I’ve washed my hands, not chewing on the remark you made earlier today. Just feeling the slippery film of soap between my hands, feeling my hands rub against each other, feeling the cold water run along my hands, making my hands less slippery with each drop. Shaking the water of my hands. Getting a towel. Feeling the dry towel on my wet hands, feeling its softness, its warmth. Simply feeling. 

When I’m folding the laundry with the help of my one year old I try to focus on doing just that, folding the laundry with her. Not watching a television show. Not thinking about how much faster it would be done if I would do it on my own. Not thinking about how it would be less boring if I were watching Oprah. Taking a towel from my daughter, thanking her, putting it on my knees, folding it twice and then four times. Putting it on the back of the couch  so eager little fingers cannot get a hold of them again. Taking another towel. Appreciating the help I’m being offered. Folding until the basket is empty. Simply enjoying folding together.

When I’m listening to you I try to focus on doing just that, listening to you. Not having my own story in mind, assuming you mean this or that, not interrupting to fill in the blanks or tell my story. Just hearing your voice, listening to your story. Seeing the expressions on your face, sensing your body. Feeling my breath going in and out. Simply being a space for your story, for you.  

It’s easier said than done, though. I mess up all the time, catching myself red handed. And that’s okay, I just try again and again. It’s worth every bit of struggle. I’ve noticed that when I really focus on one thing at a time, I allow myself to simply be. When I’m not distracted, I can feel Life flowing through me. I feel the oneness with Life. I feel connected with you.  





Life is a Mirror

19 03 2008

The way I feel. The food I eat. The clothes I wear. The books I read. The chair I sit in. The look on your face. They are reflections of me. When I look around. What do I see? Nourishment? Scarcity? Love? Abundance? Disapproval? What does this say about me?

Through my five senses I create the world around me. I give meaning to the fire storm of neurons in my brain. I filter all incoming messages according to what I have learned. I am selective in what I experience. This way, I create the world around me. Life is a mirror reflecting back at me how I see myself. When you say you’re fat, while I think your skinny, do I feel you’re wrong or do I see two reflections, yours and mine. When you say you love me, when you say I’m a stupid cow, do I think you’re right or do I know myself as I am and recognize the reflection of you.

One of The Four Agreements Don Miguel Ruiz talks about is Don’t take anything personally. This one agreement turned my life around. All these years, the world had revolved around little me. Once I saw your actions as reflections of how you view yourself, I started seeing myself as I am.

Life is a mirror. It only reflects what is there. Essentially, the world is in me.





Be still

16 03 2008

I speak to you.
Be still
Know I am God.

I spoke to you when you were born.
Be still
Know I am God.

I spoke to you at your first sight.
Be still
Know I am God.

I spoke to you at your first word.
Be still
Know I am God.

I spoke to you at your first thought.
Be still
Know I am God.

I spoke to you at your first love.
Be still
Know I am God.

I spoke to you at your first song.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you through the grass of the meadows.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you through the trees of the forests.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you through the valleys and the hills.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you through the Holy Mountains.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you through the rain and snow.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you through the waves of the sea.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you through the dew of the morning.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you through the peace of the evening.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you through the splendour of the sun.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you through the brilliant stars.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you through the storm and the clouds.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you through the thunder and lightening.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you through the mysterious rainbow.
Be still
Know I am God.

I will speak to you when you are alone
Be still
Know I am God.

I will speak to you through the Wisdom of the Ancients.
Be still
Know I am God.

I will speak to you at the end of time.
Be still
Know I am God.

I will speak to you when you have seen my Angels.
Be still
Know I am God.

I will speak to you throughout Eternity.
Be still
Know I am God.

I speak to you.
Be still
Know I am God.

The essene gospel of peace





Thoughts are just thoughts

12 03 2008

One of first things that opened my mind to a different view of reality was the concept of illusion. In The Four Agreements, Don Miguel Ruiz calls it mitote, fog or smoke.

When I was I child, I learned to see the world through the eyes of my parents, my teachers, and society as a whole. I learned to label everything, Mom, Dad, Bird, Tree, House… I learned where to put my attention, how to behave, what was wrong and right,  and even how to feel. I internalized their ideas and they became mine. And thus my ego was born. When I looked at a tree, I would think tree and forget what it looked like before I even knew that word. When I broke the rules, I would feel guilty not remembering I was without guilt before I knew there were rules. The pure being I once was became clouded by a fog of concepts. I could not see myself or the world as they really are. And as everyone is conditioned differently, everyone experiences the world differently. Once I got this,  Read the rest of this entry »





Full circle

5 03 2008

It is strange how sometimes things just seem to come together. Somewhat more than a week ago, I decided to throw out all conceptions I had about myself. From the moment I did, it has been almost silent in my head. My inner-critic seems to have taken a vacation. The world has become a lighter place, more pleasurable and peaceful.

A few days later, I started reading Eckhart Tolle’s A New Earth and I feel I’ve come full circle, at last. I did not know Eckhart Tolle previous books, but I was captivated by the subtitle Awakening to your Life’s purpose. Reading this book felt like coming home to me.  I was able put my journey into perspective and found a deep sense of peace. The book rang true with me on the deepest level.  I’m trying to come up with a metaphore, but the only thing that comes to mind is the fresh breeze that  blows through a house when you open the windows during a spring cleaning to let out the stale winter air. You smell spring and all you want to do is take a deep breath, let it all in. What Tolle writes is not new, but it certainly is renewing.

If you define yourself as a seeker, if you want to learn more about you, (your) Life and its meaning, this book will leave you speechless. It is mindblowing, litterally. With the book comes a once in a lifetime opportunity of attending world’s largest class online with Oprah and Eckhart . Join a community of over half a million people worldwide that are ready for change. Read, listen and be transformed.






Yes, we can CHANGE!

2 03 2008