Smokey Mirror

Connectedness. A word that indicates how connected  you are. To the internet. To the  human web. To friends.

The need to connect or belong seems to be growing.  Who are you, if not connected to another? To a degree, it is true that a person is a person through their relationship to others. But how many relationships does one need to feel connected? Need being the pivotal word  in that sentence, for it expresses lack of something, a relationship in this case. Need is a state of disconnectedness. A place of scarcity, where one is focused on what one does not want, like feeling alone. Could it be true that we are so desparately trying to connect because we have lost the main Connection? To Self?

What I know for  sure.  When I am Connected, I feel love, joy and appreciation for all that is. I feel whole. Being Connected, my connectedness comes from a place of wanting. I connect with you because I deeply enjoy sharing this experience with you.  Any medium will do.

Hidden in the chaos of these past weeks was the greatest gift of all. Buried under layers of pain, my soul’s intention was waiting to be found. Use this lifetime to become whole. Accept the truth of who you are.  Be true to the essence of yourself. Live with integrity and everything else will fall into place.

Pain is the great purifier. Like a fire, if you let it roar, pain will purge your soul of all that is not true. However sharp and almost unbearable at times, this pain will destroy all that is keeping me from being who I can be. What I know for sure right now is that this pain will allow me to become a clearer manifestation of Life. 

I know Life is perfect, even though my life feels chaotic and painful in this moment.  Life is as it is. I may not like it, I may wish things were different, but these thoughts won’t get me anywhere. To go on with my life, I need to befriend this moment, this pain. I need to make peace with this moment, the chaos. I need to accept I have created this moment by not being true to myself. 

I don’t know what the future will bring and that’s okay. I know Life is everchanging. I know Life will unfold through me when I stop resisting, stop fighting. Life will lead me when I trust everything will be all right, when I have faith this moment can teach me all I need to know to grow into who I really am, to be true to myself.

I  don’t know what to do right now and that’s okay. I lay down all wants, needs and expectations. I will do nothing, I will make no promises, I will not try to make things work, I will not be who I’m not. Instead, I will trust Life to lead me. I know the answers can be found within. All I need to do is be still and listen. I will pray and meditate. I will open my heart to all the possible answers the Universe has to offer. And I will trust my heart to pick the answer that is right for me.

Every question that truly matters to you, will be answered. You may find the answer in a different place, through a different voice or in a different package than you expected. The answer may be ‘no’ or ‘later’. Ask anyway. Ask and let go. Of your wants, of your expectations, of your needs, even your need for an answer to that question. Ask and be ready to receive. You may not receive an answer now, not tomorrow, in a week or even a year. Ask and know that the answer is already there. Be still, listen.

Understand that everything comes from one source. Everything is, has been and will always be there. You are part of a timeless and giving Universe. Ask with faith and passion and your consciousness will expand to the origin of everything, the space before creation, where all potential lies dormant, where time and space are irrelevant. The answer to your question was there all along. Open your heart and mind to all the possible answers the Universe has to offer.  Be be grateful for the opportunity that will present itself.