With spiritual growth conditioning will break, it will go to pieces like shattered glass..but you are holding on to it knowing well its brittleness.

jump off the boat, into the water of life.. let water take you up and down the stream, toss you throw you aside and in the free state of your Self, may you find the joy, the peace and the happiness.

which is the state of your true self? have you known your self? who says that the person who is you for 39 years is the true self, if you were so true why you are here?

that what emerges today is your truth , and that what will emerge day after will also be your truth..

and that what you were doing and that what you have to do in your daily life, how does that define you..you will do everything the same but not you the one who were doing it…

when you change yourself, everything is new…in the same setting..

who is holding you to change? you are. You are not targeting the pleasure, you are not focusing on the happiness…

the paradox is not that the spiritual part is not uplifting your energies…but the paradox is that the spiritual energies will lift in tandem with mundane.

Dont let yourself be fooled by the fact the spiritual life will reside in some other plane…the spiritual life will start inside you but you will transform your mundane , then only you will realize the spirit…

cause, we are locked with the bodies to live in the physical world..the internal changes must reflect the shape of the mundane and the routine…

you are already spiritual…now change the routine, change the nearl world, the home, the furniture, the breakfast menus….

the ultimate reality is this , realization will also some through mundane.

Again as you have rightly understood, the energy has to be retained and replenished and any shallow or deep rooted negativity will take it away from you. So to work on the fundamentals is important..we all get too much sophisticated and leave the fundamentals behind isnt it?

Look into your happiness pattern. What makes you happy? Are you not doing what makes you happy? To me writing this and being in company of people who understand about sprit and the world beyond mundane makes me happy.
You have to find what makes you happy.

What is disturbing your peace? by default, you must feel peaceful. You can not live with any fear or worry for long.

By virtue of the fact that you consider yourself a energy residing in a body, and not the other way, you can not be anything but happy and cheerful and peaceful because you are an eternal being. what can harm you or what can scare you??

Try to go to the basics, to the understanding of your energy…even for the mundane world where you live in, your perspective shall come from the energy and spirit, live light, sail light…and be a true light( of sun)

and then above all you have such a nice smile …see the mirror at times