Life Challenge

15 11 2007

It has been 8 years since I started my Life Challenge. At the time, it felt as if my life didn’t fit me anymore. I had grown out of it years beforehand, but had not had the courage to fit on a new life. I had become sick with stress and knew deep inside the only way to heal would be to leave my old life behind and find a new life, more becoming of me. For me, it meant letting go my notion of God and everything this encompassed, a life that revolved around sincere bible study, prayer and church. It has been the scariest thing I have ever done.
By letting go, I entered a new realm, where I did not recognize anything at first, I did not know where I was going, where my foot would land with the next step, I stumbled and fell, had bruises all over and felt disoriented and confused all the time. But wonder, oh wonder, I was not afraid, because divine energy was surrounding me. The God (for lack of a better word) I was walking away from, was walking with me. It was the same God I had always known, but different. After some time, my eyes got used to this new and wondrous world, imaginable and unimaginable at the same time. I now recognize what is behind me, but I have no clue what is in front of me. I’m ok with that.
I’m learning God happens when I’m willing to leave my old life behind me every day, just as Life happens when I’m willing to surrender to this divine energy in everything I do. I take one step a time, trying to be open to every challenge that comes into my life.  Living my life to the best of my abilities. Have you entered the Life Challenge yet?  


One response to “Life Challenge”

27 02 2008
Smokey Mirror » Thy will be done (09:15:58) :

[...] Until I let go of God, some eight years ago, my life was an ongoing conversation with God. As I let go, I lost my ability to pray. I felt surrounded by divine energy, but did not know how to communicate with it. So I lived by the word of Meister Eckhart. If the only prayer you ever say in your entire life is thank you, it will be enough. On Tuesday,  reading Gary Zukav’s Seat of the Soul again, I came across the words Allow yourself to pray. These four words sang in my heart. And as I felt the deep longing to share my life, instantly came the words I wanted to say. Communication restored. I was home, home at last. Connected again. [...]

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